GROSS!!!
Well, there's my living situation in the Fall. The roommates are kinda far away (NC and Colorado)...and don't seem too aware that technically our lease is supposed to begin in four weeks...and one of the girls has turned in no paperwork, and neither of the other girls have sent in their application fees/security deposit. I talked with the leasing office today and it sounds like they have a place reserved for us they just need to make sure we're still interested and were concerned about my living situation for early August while they're getting the apartment ready. So, I'm definitely praying that the peace God gave me about staying in Kent next year will stay steady and things will continue to fall into place smoothly.
Then, there's my freakin' bank account! This is super embarrassing to admit, but I have over-drafted more than 10 times in the past six weeks, but have actually had enough money to cover everything in the bank...just not in the account I actually use. 10 over-draft fees at $39 each equals $390 out the window. I desperately need to get all my money in one account...otherwise I'm gonna over-draft AGAIN, only this time it'll be my rent check...and I'll be getting a generous paycheck on Friday.
Last night, I was super stressed out about everything. I couldn't sleep (very unusual for me) and all I wanted to do was to cope with the stress by stepping into my fantasy world that God has convicted me repeatedly for and has brought people into my life to hold me accountable to not stumbling in it. So, I decided instead to take a shower and get my mind off it for a little bit. After my shower, I spent time with God and He brought my mind to Matthew 8:23-27 where the disciples (fishermen) are on a boat with Jesus and Jesus is sleeping, then a really bad storm comes and they have to wake Him up and then He calms the storm. God was totally asking me to go to Him and wake Him up, knowing that I couldn't handle the storm, but He absolutely could (and would) calm it for me. I so badly wanted to not have to be the responsible one for once, and God simply said He wants to take care of everything, and just wanted me to admit I couldn't, ask Him to take the wheel, and then rest against Him. I spoke with the leasing office before leaving for work this morning and they said that they had the apartment reserved for us, they just need to know that we are absolutely for sure gonna live there for the year. What a relief!
So far as the here and now finances are concerned, I was really worried I wasn't gonna have time to get all my money in one account since I work 9:30-5:30 half an hour away, and I can't wait til Saturday. Well, I arrived to work this morning to my co-worker asking me if I could work the opening shift tomorrow (7-3), which means I'll have time after work to get to the bank and close those two extraneous accounts. I have a little bit of money to deposit and some money owed to call in that should make me break even. Not to mention I get paid on Friday and they won't get the check til tomorrow (Wednesday) so if they put off depositing it just a couple short days, I would be in real good shape!
God promises that the storms don't last forever and I'm for sure looking forward to seeing the rainbow at the end of it. Also though, storms are definitely a good time for God to show Himself incredibly wonderful, in spite of how scary they may be. I grew up in a family that loved watching storms...especially the ones that seemed to make me the most nervous (you know, bright lightning bolts, loud, rattling thunder, but not a drop of rain) and as soon as I learned that a big storm in the summer meant a cold-front was on its way I would look forward to its passing through. Now, I think God is challenging me to embrace the storm, and to even enjoy the scary lightening and thunder because of how it makes me cling to Him.
Hoping to learn to rest in the care of my great and beautiful Savior in the midst of this life.
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