God said college ministry again!!!
I was just talking to a friend about wanting to explore if my passion for low-income families would translate into my future profession. Totally just kinda rambling to her about what I was thinking for my life next year, nothing unusual. Right around that time a good friend who I'd also just been talking to texts me this "you are possibly my only mentor who i love talking to about all things because you talk through and with love. The love Jesus gives you." I read it while still on the phone, and was touched (but preoccupied) and texted back :-) I read it a little later...and did not quite experience the same warm, fuzzy feeling...
Instead, God once again said, "College ministry." I said, "NO!", dropped my phone on the lap desk, put my head in my hands and shook it back and forth with multiple "uh-uh"s. Now sometimes the "college ministry" whispers are instigated by something else God is doing in my life, and I am at peace about categorizing those as being unlikely from God. But this last one, was VERY abrupt and completely unrelated to that "something else."
WHAT THE FREAKING HECK DOES THIS MEAN???!!! I, simply put, don't want to do college ministry; it is not my passion! God knows it is not my passion, so why does He keep bringing it up?? Three to five months ago, God got me to be okay with saying yes if He calls me to go into college ministry, with the understanding that He's not gonna completely disregard my own passions. Well, over these past months, He's clearly shown me my wiring for college ministry and how beautifully He's been using me in His Church the last seven years. So, I'm okay with that, especially since knowing that He's told me to stay I can be sure He is gonna continue using me here...but WHAT IS THIS??? Could I have the talent and the calling, but not the passion for college ministry?? Would God do that?
I wrote all that last night before externally processing for an hour and a half with a good friend. And now, almost 24 hours later, I'm at peace about staying involved with college ministry until God tells me to go elsewhere. Now, I don't know what that is gonna look like, and really, I'm not interested in knowing anything for sure yet. This much is definitely enough for at least a couple months! *hint hint* I'm still not super excited about college ministry itself, but I am thrilled that God has revealed a small part of His will last night! Not to mention the interest He's taken in knitting me into a person to fulfill His beautiful purpose for my life! Yeah, I believe that the God who created the universe has developed specific talents and put me in incredibly unique situations and relationships that have revealed the way through which He desires to most glorify Himself!! How AMAZING!!!
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