Doing a little bit of venting...
Why is it that all the jobs I want and would be qualified for are out of the state??
Why is it that every local job I apply for I don't hear back about?
Why is it that God is putting me in three very different, though equally frustrating, waiting games??
Why am I working at a job I don't enjoy?
Why does Satan constantly expose how my life is not going the way I wanted, and I'm not happy about it?
Why won't God just prove Himself unfaithful so I can return to being in charge of my own life?
Why am I so easily irritated by everything?
Why are the holidays that are fun for everyone but me approaching?
Why am I still single??
Answer: Because this is what God wants for me right now...to almost all of those questions.
I hate that answer! I'm sick of God not simply giving me what I want. I "know" God's plans are better than mine, but COME ON!!! It really seems like He's intentionally keeping me from every want I have, and then is calling me to trust Him with more! God, haven't I jumped off enough cliffs yet to please You? Could You please address a messed up area of my life that doesn't have to do with patience or contentment or trust...just for a little while??
I don't care right now that this will all be worth it in due time. Right now, it's really hard and I'm sick of it.
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