Cliff Notes Version of my Life

If I were ever asked to write Cliff Notes for books, I would definitely get fired within a week or two. When I think of stories, there's so much significance in the details that to leave them out would not do the story justice. I can briefly summarize, but if you give me more than five minutes to summarize, you will need to set aside 30 minutes to hear much more than you actually wanted to know ;-)

I was asked a couple days ago for the Cliff Notes version of my life a couple days ago and I failed miserably! First, I had 3 important things to tell her about. I gave the first two a couple sentences each, mostly the first thing is still difficult and the second thing is really, really difficult and builds into the third thing. There was no way I was gonna give a brief version of the third thing, so I didn't even pretend to.

Here however, I will give a very abridged version simply for the sake of uncertainty in what is actually gonna happen next. After seven years of serving somewhat begrudgingly, God is VERY clearly leading me to pursue college ministry long-term, into my "actual" adult life. It's absolutely incredible, but completely true. I've always kept away from seeing that leading cuz my heart broke for a completely different population, and I didn't want to sacrifice that passion for something I wasn't thrilled about doing. Well, I'm pursuing this with a passion for it! I suppose it's kinda always been there, a passion for some of the stuff that is in college ministry, but only in the past couple weeks have I realized the passion actually is college ministry. I have no clue what God intends for that to actually look like. Generally there are two alternatives for involvement as a non-student: staff or community member, and honestly, I do not wanna be on staff. Raising support, working exclusively with Christians (even if for non-Christians), not actually working within my passion for serving economically disadvantaged families are among the least appealing things to me. Considering my financial situation, my newly-realized passion for college ministry, and how God has been using me in various students' lives lately, pursuing an internship makes sense. Also, with an internship, I may find God actually leading me to pursue staff, which would be weird and super scary. But, I have to let God be in charge and be willing to let Him put me in situations through which I can hear Him speak.

I know that was a long abridged version, but there is SOO much more, like why an internship specifically, how I feel He's using me to make an impact, why I'm so oppositional to staff right now, some of my hesitations about actually pursuing this and how God's met me in those, etc, etc. It's incredible!! I'll be meeting with one of the pastors some time after Fall Getaway to see if this actually is an open door. Regardless though, I'm here for a while, with a very specific preferred role in mind that is yet more details not included here.